I was browsing my little notebook and found a draft of my thoughts that I wrote before. I can say that nothing was change on my thoughts now and before. It’s the same feeling that I feel and felt, and it said like this:
What is my dreams, goals and priorities in life? Question that I always ask to myself. I don’t know what happened? How it became like this. I just woke up one morning, asking myself with the same question everyday.
I remember when I was a child, my cousin asked me what I want to be when I grow up? What are my dreams? I answered her with a smile in my face and said “I have a lot of things I want to do when I grow up. I want to travel around the world, learn different language, be an artist, be independent..” And what was funny is I said that I want to be a president someday (LOL). Too much imagination & dreams that comes to my mind when I was a kid and now I don’t know. . .
Reading this again made me think what I was thinking that day when say all those things to my cousin. Am I insane or that’s what I get in watching too much anime. However on the other side I envy that kid for being honest on what she really wants in life. A lot of things happened and changed in my life that includes my dream. When I was in elementary I want to be an architect. Then when I was in highschool it change, I want to be a nurse. However, I end up taking HRM in my college. See how complicated I was. Until now I’m still confuse on what I really want to be. I want to be a radio DJ now but still I don’t know.
I wish I can answer also that same question like that kid with honesty, no hesitation or doubt in myself and more importantly with a SMILE.